How come it seems like every time something/someone comes around that you really want you cannot have it? What is the point of finally finding something that you think in great or even superfuckindope (Thanks Erika) if you can’t have it? No matter what I seem do there is always something that pops up that I wouldn't mind having but there is always some circumstance on why I can't have it. It almost like god wants to be constantly disappointed. :( I just for once I want to get something that I really have my eye on. It's ridiculous that even the things that you find most perfect are almost impossible to get hold of. I gave this whole concept a lot of thought and I figured out maybe you can have your cake and eat it too. Maybe instead of just looking at what you cannot have, maybe you have to just take it. I don't mean take it in the since of stealing, but as in trying your best to get it. Maybe if we stopped telling ourselves we can’t have something and just make a plan on how we can reach it we will be able to have our cake and eat it too!
I often wonder why your typical guy gets enjoyment out of sleeping around with different women. Why do most males pursue females just for a sexual experience? Do most guys really think with their penises? Don't get me wrong sex is a wonderful thing, but it shouldn't be the biggest determining factor in one of your relationships. An orgasm does feel great, but to me it can't compare to the feeling of being truly and deeply loved. You all know the feeling where you do nothing but think about a person constantly. The feeling that when you are apart it actually hurts you. The feeling of time stopping when you two are in each other arms. Those are the feelings I truly live for. To just hold each other and stare deeply into each other’s eyes that is the best feeling. I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, which is alright with me. A lot of guys don't do it because of the fear of getting hurt, but I think the possibility of being overprotective and missing the one that is right for you out weights the the possibility of being hurt.
But maybe it's just me........ <3>
